Vocal Mama

I read somewhere about a mom who rejoined work 3 months postpartum and has taken her daughter to several countries in last 4 years. That made me feel like a failure.  I have been on maternity leave followed by childcare leave since Y was born. Thanks to corona, Y has been in-house since he was 7 months old. Before that, being a new mother and a person with moderate OCD, i was too scared to take him out unnecessarily. His only go-outs since March are his pediatrician's visit. He is too small to wear a mask and social distancing ofcourse does not make sense to him, he is a toddler and all he want to do is explore.  When i see people posting about their children's photoshoots, birthday pictures, ceremonies; I feel nothing but guilt. I feel bad about not being able to give Y all that. He did not have a birthday party because of lockdown. It was just us on his birthday. He barely got any gifts. There was bare minimum decoration which S and I could do ourselves. I baked a cake mysel...