Vocal Mama

I read somewhere about a mom who rejoined work 3 months postpartum and has taken her daughter to several countries in last 4 years. That made me feel like a failure.  I have been on maternity leave followed by childcare leave since Y was born. Thanks to corona, Y has been in-house since he was 7 months old. Before that, being a new mother and a person with moderate OCD, i was too scared to take him out unnecessarily. His only go-outs since March are his pediatrician's visit. He is too small to wear a mask and social distancing ofcourse does not make sense to him, he is a toddler and all he want to do is explore.  When i see people posting about their children's photoshoots, birthday pictures, ceremonies; I feel nothing but guilt. I feel bad about not being able to give Y all that. He did not have a birthday party because of lockdown. It was just us on his birthday. He barely got any gifts. There was bare minimum decoration which S and I could do ourselves. I baked a cake mysel...

We live in a nuclear set up, its me-my husband (referred as S) and our 16 months old super naughty toddler (referred as Y). When Y was born, S and I had an ideal parenting picture in mind but while Y was bidding adieu to his baby year, we realized that he is the boss and all we can do is SURVIVE. The feeling of being on the back seat striked when he started to toddle with his little feet. He wanted to go out and explore and we had no choice but to follow. Toddlers deal with a tsunami of emotions just like us adults, the difference is this that we adults can be vocal about it and the little humans can only throw a tantrum and cry uncontrollably. Anyway, initially Y was happy exploring and we were happy following until he started exploring all the things which theoretically he was not supposed to touch. There started our babyproofing saga. Babyproofing went fine practically but emotionally it was haunting for little Y to not be able to do his favorite pranks. Hence, we came up with a pl...